A Searching Heart
I walk along the warm and nestled beach
With the cool water splashing the heels of my feet
I ask myself everyday where are you? Am I yours?
I wait for roaring waves to send me an answer
But nothing comes.
I walk through the colorful garden
Between the daffodils and orchids
With every brush of every petal, I pray
I pray that when I end this peaceful walk, you will be there
But no one appears.
I walk though the crowded streets
I turn left, I turn right
I have no sense of where to go
I stand still in the blizzard of bodies
As the people shove my swollen shoulder I turn to see if it is you
But it is not.
I walk down a cold and lonely alley
Getting tired now but still aware
I search for you in places you could never be
I do not care I must proceed
I open a door that has never been opened
There’s nothing there
But I still go on.
I walk back down the lonely alley
And find myself in the crowded streets; I walk on
I am now walking down the path I once took through the daffodils and orchids
I can hardly keep my eyes open
I now see the splashing waves and I run.
I am in the water now, I listen but there is no sound
I look and see something that wasn’t there before
An object floats towards me with a slow pace
I swim, my arms so weak
I stop and wait.
I feel something hitting my belly
I pick it up not knowing what to expect
It is a bottle; it is so cold my hands can hardly hold it
I rub the bottle with my torn sleeves
Then I see it; the waves answered my call
It is a message.
I open it as if it were gold inside
As I read the mysterious letter I cry
You sent me this message to tell me the worst
You are gone!
I cannot breath I feel the current now
It is pushing me away
I’m so tired I want to sleep
I cry because of all this pain
My legs give way I am falling now
There is nothing I can do.
I cannot breathe; the water is covering my mouth
I am too tired to struggle
I look up and see the sun glaring through the water
It is getting darker now my eyes show me nothing
I am alone in the dark
I’m falling, falling
Now I am blacking out, I sleep but then I wake
Now I realize what I must do
I give up now; I am gone too
But now I’m with you!