And Then, Not

'Everything that happens where we live happens in us. Everything that ceases in what we see ceases in us. Everything that has been, if we saw it when it was, was taken from us when it went away. The office boy left today.'
~Fernando Pessoa


It’s the office boy -
And, God… the baby.


They existed, undeniably so,
In the days that came and went
[and he loved them]
Until they, themselves,
Were gone.

Somehow in their going…
They became more-real

And the sudden, pained awareness
Of their being, then, not-there
Was impossible to deny
And undeniably unbearable
(because he loved them) .


It’s the office boy –
And God, the baby,


And you

And me

And… that.



(The 'office boy' quote above was extracted from Fernando Pessoa's The Book of Disquiet, entry 279 and I first discovered the 'baby' in 'Yes, I Know It's All Quite Natural', a piece attributed to Alvaro De Campos in the book Fernando Pessoa & Co. These two books are among those that NEVER get put away.)

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an artful write on a theme that impressed you, Christine...stylish poem presentation...i liked 10
the poignant spirituality that defines this poem caused me to return; once again 'and then not'
You're no slouch yourself. You are a little bit of the Heroin I spoke of.
Beautifully written - inspired poetry. The fact that you share the source of your inspiration is interesting, but I hasten to add that the poem would stand superbly without it. Clear, articulate penning - in truth and with heart. love, Allie ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
My friend you write a passionate truth! There is an exaggerated realism in the memory.
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