Apu's Letter To Durga Didi

At last, you too, O my sister, have eaten
the fruit of the forbidden tree*!
Those who eat its fruit are thrown away by God
from the garden of Eden into the dustbin of Earth.
Those who eat its fruit discover youth
within their bodies; that youth sets fire
to all the organs of body; then men, like drunkards,
go to live in a forest leaving their homes behind,
and build there with a great devotion
their Spring-dwellings.

Now I play on my old bamboo-flute sitting alone
into Kashful garden as white as a dhuti.
Crossing the border, its tone cannot reach you
at your father-in-law's house in Odisha.
It is many years you went to your husband's house.
After your departure, barbed wires came
in the border.
How will I go to you, O Didi*,
when the border-guards, like hunters, raise their
hungry guns towards us as if we were the tasty
Horial doves* sitting on the boughs of a peepul tree?

Now when the fields of Autumn get full
of mustard-flowers, your memory gets alive;
you wearing the yellow sari used to run like a fairy
on the dew-wet boundaries of mustard-fields
catching my one hand tightly- I started panting-
I only recollect those sweet scenes now.

When the mango trees get surged now with small
green mangoes, I rush to our kitchen to steal away
some salt and then I start sharpening oyster
on the cemented ghat of our pond-
it seems to me you are coming within a moment
filling the loose end of your sari with mangoes
and addressing me, you say, 'Look at, Apu,
how big the mangoes are! Surely seeds have grown
within them.'

O my sister, leaving those wild pleasures behind,
which pleasures do you run after now?
Which peace does one get by getting married,
Which peace does one get by going to a father-in-law's house,
Which peace does one get by getting mad with body
when the salty tears of separation raise waves
into her Apu's two eyes?

Was Adam happy for a moment leaving the garden of Eden?
O Durgadi, are you happy too, leaving your Apu behind?


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*Tree of the Knowledge
*'Didi' means 'elder sister'
*A kind of dove in Bengal

by Sayeed Abubakar

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Comments (2)

Appu, young brother remembers his elder sister long after she is gone to her father in laws house across border.With teary eyes he reminiscences the the fond memories.A child is ignorant of the purpose of marriage and strongly distaste the fact that his elder sister left him because of her husband and father -in -laws house.The poet expresses the feeling of a child through child's perspective.But the child will mature and know this is life.Sister has to go to her husband, and there her happiness lies.
I read this poem first now need to read Bharati Nayak's poem. Still the poem is wonderful that it expresses a young brothers loneliness and longing to see his married sister back in his house as he misses her.