RC (12/05/1997 / )

Beauty

We are told what a woman should be, and in an instant it becomes a childhood dream.

I was told about beauty before I learned my body had a brain, and I became obsessed with becoming the teenage girls on TV.

In the 2nd grade I remember going to school and being put down because you couldn't see my bones, and my face was too round.

Every year they told me I was ugly so in grade 5 I wore makeup and fancy clothing hoping they couldn't see through me.

They called me a slut so in grade 6 I dressed in guys clothing.

They called me a fat lesbian bitch while I was in the change room at school and even threatened to kill me as I was walking home.

In grade 7 I become obsessed with death and wrote my very own suicide note.

My parents found the note so in grade 8 I left my school.

Today I hate my body and everyday is a struggle.

I look in the mirror and see not a girl but whale...

I look at my thighs, belly, and arms, and I suffocate in inadequacy.

I feel like no one could ever love me, and every time he tells me I'm beautiful I don't believe him, and that fucking kills me!

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Comments (5)

In grade 7 I become obsessed with death and wrote my very own suicide note. Today I hate my body and everyday is a struggle. conquering the thought pattern that tells you that you are not lovable can beome a psychological problem Every human being is lovable. we have to believe it ourselves. learning to love is an art. you wrote a good poem about the struggles of a girl. thank you very much
brilliant write..liked much
A great thought on the subject of beauty...10/10
Wow, that sad... Everybody is biut'ful but not everybody sees the beauty in everybody and at least everybody has somebody who sees him/her biut'ful but even if nobody sees how biut'ful you are, that should not be a worry cos maybe you are so unique that nobody sees it. In reality you don't need anyone to tell you, you're beautiful. You should just know
BEAUTY LIES IN THE EYES OF THE BEHOLDER. The saying is very true, indeed from my own experience, I can authoritatively declare that different men admire different kinds of women. There are three different body types - MESOMORPHS (muscular) people, ECTOMORPHS (thin) people, and ENDOMORPHS (fat) people, each set of these body types has its admirers. Believe him, you're indeed beautiful. A lovely poem well articulated and nicely penned. Thanks for sharing and do keep it up. Please read my poem MANDELA - THE IMMORTAL ICON.