Poem By Averill Curdy

I will take your stony heart and give you one of flesh.
The wake sewing shut those white lips
and after when leagues and all behind to salt
fell the grateful Spaniards prayed
It became their habit to turn eyes sore away
from surfeit Rashes and abrasions of spring
leaf stem vine blossom aphid & berry stridulant
intricate and promiscuous without the rose
or borage or pomegranate embowered
in flaunting silks on gauntlet cuffs No
none of that repose their soldier-love required to root

20,000 had died in Ravenna He survived
without mark to show what he knew
how fear cramped each man solitary
inside himself until the spark that leapt stinging
them on to violence the grass-fire battle-frenzy
the grass that kneels to its burning
Then aftermath's
vegetable melee limbs and bodies

But what is not threat in this contagion and panic
of green Whores wives saints sovereigns
this beach that thick-leaved mustardy shrub Names
he thinks the names keep slipping

Swift intent armored obdurate as beetles no one man
felt the wound of where like Adam too late he walked

* * *

The air flexing began to bruise green around them
the fresh human injury of them Like flies
trapped in a bottle they didn't know what to do
and carried on doing it
while bird by bird invisible rescinded its song
while the sun a drop of vinegar in milk curdled the sky
Quiet sumptuous as pain eased by what hand
abrupt as that held in the breath
exhausted just before the witch confesses

Like an executioner who ropes hair over hand
to bend and lengthen the neck for his ax
the wind brutalized palm trees spun men
before it loosely as leaves in a stream
He linked arms with another
Broken wing Splintering oar Chainless anchor
dragging through darkness thick with sand and water and noise
whistles braying drums timbrels & ululations
Pressed all night to the porch of the storm his ear
mistook the self's own alienated music called it sorcery

That the fury never ended he would learn
walking the eye of its silence

After the hurricane the stunned brilliance like a spell
or question he woke into waking by himself to himself
and naked as a saint to discover his ship
with its ropes tools weapons salves Spain
was the anchored ship
now hoisted on planks of sunlight over the palm-trees
sailing out of sight The boat sick
for such mirth
made by root sap riverbank & squirrel
it would return to that green oak it once had been

* * *

In what hour of what night did he know his soul
to turn a stranger to him
Pilgrim he will venture forth across uncertain fields
Explorer he will cry out

He may be nothing more
than a hide rigid with gore & soil to be
scoured pounded abused by caustics and by iron
and in watered pigeon-shit kneaded until supple
for the hand—
but whose and must
the hand continue to wear or it will toughen again

* * *

Daily he marched his men into corrugations of
blue distances dissolving one to another like promises
of gold & corn made by guides snatched from villages
As the Spanish found new ways to die natives
loomed naked on the horizon they looked
splendid & violent as idols Their women & children
restored for ransoms of melons or fish

Often some chief would repeat his good friend
possessed more of each thing they desired His noble gestures
spread like balm his speech intoxicating
but so militant their hunger his words came entire
& legible to their sense as the amber & musk that steamed
from these his fine furs

* * *

His dwindling force
through swamps & ambush labored circuitous stalled
like mayflies in their brevity & towarding and never
fable riches youth nor rest to take
Only the body
with its anxious extremeties eccentric naked
not natural from which a vein of fascinated shame
opened darkly glittering smoldering
like sea-coal Every eye interrogated
Each inquisitor humiliated
by these echoes of himself his body violating
the silence

* * *

Now alone and exposed approaching
he amassed his ocherous archive of blister
and of bruise the old fabulous
atlas of faith in blood & smoke redrawn

Still even the most exacting map dreams
omits & lies brindled
with sums & suppositions

Every step makes him more wilderness
He goes interiorly
to trade conches sea-snails & screw-beans
for red-dyed deer-tail tassels and the arrow-makers'
sinew & flint between ragged bands
surrounded by enemies enthralled by visions
that command them to bury their sons alive
Girls whose marriages would multiply their foes
become meat for their dogs
Where were the jades turquoises zinzibar Where
the sacred monsters cannibals or kings fielding legions
of dog-headed warriors
Husbands groaned
bucked by pain onto the dirt when wives gave birth
& both sexes wept
strenuously after any absence overjoyed to see each other
again in no essential changed

Had any man traveled farther than he

* * *

Whether time is the ripening of fruit the dying of fish
& the position of stars or all
the king's clocks ringing his will upon the quarter-hour
hunger is the self's severe eternal god
From desert skies could be harvested evanescing
bounties dove rabbit wild boar mountain lion
when for two months the natives drank bad water
and ate only oysters
Or salamanders ants dirt
deer dung but also many days without
To suffer only this much
demands devotion or the ingenuity of the wasp
which deposits eggs in the walking nursery of a spider

A single brief season happy to know enough
everyone was summoned by neat cornet-shaped fruits
the prickly pear migrating north as it sweetened
from parrot through orchid
What use ambition in the desert or will
The pangs can shrink but never close

* * *

He came late to healing Even a stone
they said possessed its virtue and how could he
as well so different from themselves solicit less
Left within his heart sealed it might sour
Farther they starved him
The power grew Passed along from tribe to tribe
intangible economy of magic
increased by use

Fright filled some with a lassitude they withered on
others suffered cramps headaches or had been struck
by a sorrow a terror a surfeit
Blessing each joint with a cross and that something
of him might be spent on the hurt
he breathed over it Just a little game he played to eat
before his mind emptied stroking down & up the air
like a kingfisher
under the shadow of the vaulting falcon that played it
When he lifted his hands his fingers
glowed like ten lamps of fire Why not be all

* * *

How much can I change before I am changed
It has been years so long
without abradings of any other to recall him

Dilation digression by these ways he will return

Natives said he could not be
Christian whose eyes they felt crawl over them
as if where women & men had stood was
desolating space His own people turned
away warding off this apparition of a new fault
in themselves This man

neither their stone houses
nor the need that stirs the fox's miles nor the moon
following which laid down his bones
to scry the distances in him but as though
pierced by some small passive wingless insect
whose gall blighting him
would concealed suckle & multiply its question
down a thousand generations
he was that
which they'd feared most to find
now abject now famous

Twice a year his skin like muslin pulled from his body
Without armor or felted wool or hide afterward
he was now discovered
small pricked loose & unpleated opening
to manifold injury & errand

A channel for pain and a channel for hearing

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Never the bark and abalone mask
cracked by storms of a mastering god,
never the gods' favored glamour, never
the pelagic messenger bearing orchards
in its beak, never allegory, not wisdom
or valor or cunning, much less hunger
demanding vigilance, industry, invention,
or the instinct to claim some small rise
above the plain and from there to assert
the song of another day ending;
lentil brown, uncounted, overlooked
in the clamorous public of the flock
so unlikely to be noticed here by arrivals,
faces shining with oils of their many miles,
where it hops and scratches below
the baggage carousel and lights too high,
too bright for any real illumination,
looking more like a fumbled punch line
than a stowaway whose revelation
recalls how lightly we once traveled.


George Sandys (1578-1644), translator of Ovid's Metamorphosis Englished, Mythologized, and Represented in Figures, and resident treasurer of the Virginia Company for its settlement at Jamestown (1621-1624).
I. A Long Voyage, 1621

I left you where you are:
A humming late summer afternoon
& mottled by shade a man reading a letter
Becomes the image of a man reading
That I am forgetting.
This page is small yet stout enough
To bear me whole upon it to you
All the way in London. I may expand
Myself at leisure then fold it tight,
A sanctuary;
Like our vessel christened The George,
My letter is another ark to preserve me: George.

No midnight is so private as the sea's:
Timbers breathe, a loose rope snaps, & as the wind
Shoves you behind then slaps your face,
Seeing nothing, nothing to be seen, you feel
Unhoused, evicted from time.
But tonight, my love, my lamp is feathered, shy,
Herald of the next ransack & assail.
Behold the storm petrel! gray wick-threaded throat
Burning the oil secreted, an amber musk
Of uncompassed seas & the solitary hunt,
Of error & sign, &
That delirium—which turned
Our ship's boy to mowing fields of Atlantic salt.
Like windrows he dropped the waves.

Until gaffed, pulled like a sleeve
Through himself,
He will live, tongue-bit, torn.
To return likely to a stool set on the shale
Where he can mend nets skirted by braggarts
Who have never traveled farther
Than the smoke dribbling from their chimneys.
I try never to imagine drowning.
Noisy urgent inefficiencies above, waves
Pummeling, sky shredding, & the body
Anchored only in its just longing for air.
The tighter death's embrace, the more languorous
The moment. So this boy suffered
Some vast charity of sight.
He was what he saw, an adam.
Now he may be adamant & stain & distance;
& also that small satin interruption
Of terror—the instant breath's
Orphaned by self's perishing through poetry.
Like Daphne his voice is forfeit for the song,
But we do not grieve for Daphne.

My bird-light gutters.
Its call had sounded
Like dry wood giving up a nail.

What is this your wound that you must follow it?
For you I had no answer; consider only the reveries
Of the carpet navigator in his room. Listening
To collisions of wave & star outside his tower,
Rock-rapt, icebound, with a mind by dread
& ceremony & the dozen arts of courtesy
Girded, he invented those ideal earths in latitudes
Unstrung that I now trespass—

After I had translated two books
To the pouring of seas & clamor of sailors
I began to brood long on landlessness,
Coming to believe it my sovereign, my home,
When on the flat horizon of weeks at noon the flaw:
A color merely, private, ethereal, collecting
Heft in the warp of time. Days
Before we quailed at the barbed illegible pelt
Of forest, I wrecked, forlorn upon its savor,
Sweet damage of apples
Fermenting in rain-soaked hay,
Giving way to something ranker—
I tasted it at dinner lying on my tongue.
I am His Majesty's servant as my god made me;
I am also my damps & exaltations; I am afraid.

Heaven & hell enlisted their geographers,
A map has opened the soul's five hinges, & Persian
With expectance how often have I feasted
On departure. London, Naples,
Marriage, Damascus, now your dear person.
So much flowing through me
My sight has silted dark my mouth. I beg
All the many tongues your wonder cabinet holds
—Dolphin, mockingbird, Muscovy bear—to tell
This arrival, so unforeseen, disorderly
As my hope you will not forget who I was, & am,
Unwildered, unwestered, constant, returning.

Bless you where you are, & where you would be
When you are there, & bring you thither.
My love,
What may never not be strange? What,
This morning, will wake & make me new.

II. Winter 1621

It begins like a legend told to a fretful child:
It was, it was, and it was not. It begins
As if with symptoms of that sweat
I hear, so late (oh not
Thank God too late), you were spared:
A little blush along the throat. A restlessness.
Then the silkworm's casement, tapering
& pale as the egg of a chimney-swift,
Which we will convert to cloth
To cover the naked Indian. A bobbin,
Which dropped in my tisane would ravel the maelstrom
Of silk. Spindle of whirlwind, spoonful
Of follow. The thread's stained scalding mile
Pours out my glass tempered in our kiln,
As each new settler is also seasoned
In this furnace, our new-found land.
(As the man drowning believes he digests
The mild water, as the damned marry flame
& yet blister, so do I know myself
Grasped by change at the stroke of change.)
Hold this glass up to your eye & through
Its pebbled horizon you may spy your room,
See its ire of surfaces sore with chairs.
Green grass green grace...
Would that I could account this world one
Where nothing is lost only exchanged.

Without coppice, park, romancely glade,
Or commanding vantage,
Woods press on us; they fester,
& they watch. To the northeast white spruce,
Phalanxes of fledging pinions, clamp
Root to granite & hoard
What they glean off salt-fog, sea-spray, & stone.
From ewers of willow-oaks darkness steams.
At breakfast I have pinched the plantlets
Insinuated by a maple's winged seed overnight;
It unclasps twin leaves, pale hands
Loosening the soil of my rest,
They never empty of their solicitations.

I find no empires here, no apostles or emeralds.
Instead, all things a-broil with an awful begetting
& my hours unsettled by some new show
Of riotous & mystical imagination.
Though we might wish to wedge us barnacle-tight
To shore's edge, our foundation raised
On marshland recalls this irritable fact—
The estuary, a nursery of strange devices,
Throws off new forms so promiscuously
I wonder how the world holds any more shape
Than a dream?

From my hand at night (my light
A little oil in a dish or a rush taper smoking
Not so different from his), flower
Ovid's fantastic shapes, shadows
Of an old empire's former splendor
Now perjured by Virginia's clay & leaf & sand
Turned to the king's profit as iron, silk, & glass.
Belief is possible at night, solitary, firelit.
Then, I can believe in Ovid's centaurs,
Or at death that he was met by a three-headed dog.
I can believe in your letters, which never come.

It is for you that I persist
In translating fresh birdsong, like this bunting's
Comecomecome wherewherewhere
All together down the hill.
(Where did they go, who went before us?
Starved trove: scatter of blue beads & a name
Grafted to that bald acre.
There is my terror & my tale: to go west
Under this eternity of nameless trees.)

And what will you make of this
Humble hieroglyphic of nature I forward to you?
Nocturnal, double-wombed, variously called
Monkey Fox; Frosted,
Or Short-headed, or Indolent.
Let this Leafy-Eared Rat-Tailed Shuffler
The naturals call Possoun
Join your zoo's other fantasies
& with the Little Military Learnéd Horse
Enjoy its dish of ale. Its fur is durable;
Its flesh wholesome, white, & pleasant.

With one hand I can reach for
A medicine man's last breath caught in a vial
Or a hummingbird, stuffed
With arsenic & leaves & looking
Like a fine jeweled dagger aimed at my heart,
With the other hand I brush away
The web spun in a fox skull's whitened socket
While a wild turkey glowers from its corner
Like a small dyspeptic dragon.
My cullings do not quite master my closet.
When I imagine myself returned to the smells
& noise of London, from my stiff knee
Sands grinding as I walk, no marvels
Except those which the mirror surprises in all of us,
The swan-white wing at my temple,
I do not know what to hope for:
That you do not see me, or that you do,
But as though I were pinned under glass.

At my windowsill a quince widens
A jaundiced eye into the dark where are
Real nettles beneath the words & invincible red
Root of the madder.
As long as any image of this world
Sticks in my soul, I remain—

III. Spring 1622

300 were murdered. Twice that
Refuse to garden, hunt, or gather food
But languish like sparrows sunk in a frozen pond
Staring up at shadows, awaiting
The sign that will call them back to life.
They cannot imagine their future.
Haunts without words to tell their trial; like Io,
We would flee the noise of our new voices.

Last night's sun smeared across the sky
Its customary rose-gold gore. You,
In London, you have applauded no tragedy
Your approximate heart might use to figure this—
This violence. The trees
Do not desist their manufacture.
The perfumier's corky bitch
Chewed out the tendon in her master's wrist
Until it inelastic snapped & back she bowled,
Off to the woods & not sniffed since.

With the smell of breakfast still in the air,
The aftertaste of lead was the scandal
Of blood. Bodies stung into postures,
Penitence, Weariness, Surprise, & cardinal
In red caps, red garlands of red roses
Wrapped around white throats, white
As bacon fat. No one need travel any longer
For all have found what they sought:
Henry walks his own fields, Lucy is not afraid,
Will has finally grasped the subjunctive.
The dead do not look asleep.
We cannot sleep through this life.
I watch the flies at their devotions, & I learn.

Time will not end by water or fire,
But by a congregation of frogs who yelp like hounds
& ride each other in shallow plashes.
I am inhabited by things that wake me,
But do not show themselves.

One frog my hand holds like a swollen glove.
As your maid might pare a callous,
I trim the brief cloudburst of its brain,
Which has the texture of cheese under my knife.
The frog, insensate, blind as an idol,
Would sit until it starved.
If I put Ovid between it & the window,
Tickle its hinderparts with acid, it leaps
Towards the light, avoiding the book.
Its movements finical as a rope-dancer.
Though she have her heart & liver pulled out
Another frisks & fidgets up & down.

Who am I so far from home?

A year—& through branches light comes,
A pilgrim out of March from a farther world.
There is a flaw in the air. I breathed it
From the swamp, a kiss of damp
Translated to a plague that would remote me
From care & corroding solicitudes, crown me
With this headdress of red-painted deer-hair
& weight my ears with wheels of copper.
My face painted blue & silver, my body
Washed in crimson dye, they would greet me
First with lamentations to mourn my old life,
Then by psalms I could enter
Purged & reborn & singing in a tongue
Not mine I know not where to go. (I know.)


Until wolf-light I will count my sheep,
Adumbrated, uncomedic, as they are.
One is perdu, two, qualm, three
Is sprawl, four, too late,

Night is already a thirsty county in Texas,
Salt flat and unremitting
Blacktop dry as my mouth,
And your elastic vowels, my genial,

My electric ghost, my
Radio's lonely station. Because the spectacle
Of suffering corrupts us, all punishments
Are now executive, offstage.

Most presume you a fable:
Echoes of approaching bootheels
That harry labyrinths of concrete corridors,
Or hooded in burlap.

We are convicted
As we are also pardoned: He cherished
His lawn, or afterwards he covered
The victim's face. You make no judgments

Yourself. Only in bursal tones,
Tactful as the file box
That shows, if opened, the neon, pleading heart
Of Jesus wrapped in barbed wire,

You perform penalties others have scripted, so
Untroubled by so many.
How long I have listened to you
For news of the opal distances,

Or rain to freshen the morning's arrival.
What keeps me awake? Nothing
More than a fly's dysenteric violin.
What puts me to sleep

Is your clement voice, saying
The dark has no teeth. While men like you live
In this world do I dream
I am either safe or spared?


For Audrey Richardson Curdy (1931-1986)
It was 1986, when currencies to be changed
Into multiple-launch-surface, anti-tank missiles
Swarmed through numbered bank accounts
Like Ovid's seething knotted seed of frog-slime,
Which not seldome attracted by the sun falls
In little frogs with the rain; when it also rained
Radionuclides, strontium, caesium, & iodine,
Over river & clay, & over the poet's Black Sea
Exile, before the prevailing winds blew them all
Across Europe from Chernobyl (jewel of a name
That means black stalks & tasted newly of metal),
& I was in your room trying to build a fire.
Wet branches breaking, those were your breaths
Ripped out of the air. What was it hiding you
So that at every hour's dusk I startled on you
Where you lay, nearly resigned in the talons
Of your most personal shape? Something still
Obdurate, still wild as the horned lark
Rising from its nest at the hunter's feet.
I didn't allow you to speak what I didn't know
To ask. As far as the bolted iron door to adust
I could have followed, to watch the way
You put on your flame like sweetness
Wearing the skin of a lion, & there kept
My vigil mild while bones leached minerals
& cell walls ruptured. It isn't you
Curled like a seed of storm-pine in a furrow
Of ash, but your same small jeweled hand
Belonging to a Roman matron that I see,
Its livid reach forth the black igneous rock.
Too late to retrieve the truth, too late not to
Have been like the alchemist who, lowered by rope
Into the volcano, feeling the sharp concussion
Of heat, reported his own eyes saw olive groves
& sky, mountains, & rivers of water & fire.
What can I make of this? Oh, what am I to make?


You lean disconsolate on your stool,
Sullen and certain

As minor royalty rusticated to this
Unhelpful climate of solvents, gaskets, pliers, and bolts.

Because they are new and manifold and useful

You feel their whispers against you. The staunch
Resistance of objects. How can I tell you
O my soul,

To exhaust the realm of the possible when
Ever the light
Is uncongenial as February and your hand unlovely?

Like a dog nearly annihilated by nerves
And boredom chewing her paw to sore, red velvet,

You've torn your nails so far flesh swells
Closed around each bed like an eyeless socket.

That you should be making such small change!

Fingers inarticulate as moles nudge a debris
Of dimes not thick enough to hide

The candy-colored butterfly flaring
Across the tender, veined delta of your hand

Heralding indelibly the eviction
Of this vulgar flesh

Or the one word needled in black, knuckle-Gothic
R a p t u r e