Poem By Crystal Maresh
Why do I do this?
Why do I put myself through all this pain?
Im just gonna get hurt all over again.
I just know it.
When we’re together in his room,
He acts so sensual with me.
It makes me melt.
Why do I feel that it’s all a rouse?
He’s this wonderful,
Most sexiest guy ever.
And just hot with a really
But why does he only have it
With me. Im not that beautiful looking.
I’m just this ugly fat person whom no one
Would look twice at.
Is it because I live so close to him,
So im easily accessible for him?
Or does he actually want something
Out of it.
The more I continue this,
The deeper im falling for him again.
I know im gonna get hurt again,
But I just cant get him out of my body.
He’s like a drug to me,
That im so addicted to.
It drives me crazy,
To no end in sight.
Why am I doing this?
This, sordid affair.
Is it because maybe,
You're gonna be the one who saves me?
Or is that this sad fact
That you just might be my downfall
In my messed up life.
Please don’t be my downfall.