So much going on inside my head
Memories that fill me with dread.
So much hurt built up inside
Emotions flowing and ready to collide.
The weight of the world on my shoulders
It's like I'm in the middle of a battle field of soldiers.
Things are starting to take a strain
I wish there was something to stop all this pain.
I wish I could forget
And change all the things I regret.
Every day I remember
I feel so fragile and tender.
I feel so torn
And at times wish I hadn't been born.
Lessons I was made to learn
I honestly don't know where to turn.
I feel so alone
No one wants to hear me cry and moan.
They don't know what to do
Some just simply don't have a clue.
I need to be there for my brothers
Help protect them from our evil mother.
She hurt me really bad
Painting this bad picture of my Dad.
When will this nightmare end?
Is there anybody on which I can truly depend?
I wish there was someone who could make it right
And be there to hold me through the night.
THe flash backs I suffer
And unable to cover.
At times it feels like I'm going insane
Unable to eliminate this ever-lasting pain.
All I want is a hug
And not be treated as a mug.
There are things I want to say
But I don't want to frighten people away.
I wish I could let go of the past
Why does this fear continue to last?
I can't help but push people away
I wish I could keep these negative thoughts at bay.