Fixation

I felt the pain when you looked at me,
And dismissed me with your stare.
I felt pained when you talked to me,
And made me feel like less a man.
And I felt it when you twisted your hips,
And crushed me to the mirth of your heart!

I felt used when you laughed like the devil,
And shifted whatever the label was- prada,
Sighed with satisfaction,
Wanting to know what sort of man I was,
You looked sideways-swore to file legal proceedings.
Added advantage- you are a woman!

I felt useless when you asked where to dropp me,
Naked-ashamed, asking how much you will pay me!
Licking me inside out- thought it was pleasure?
And crushing me in your waxing full jetisoned abode,
As you whimpered like an overfed happy dog,
And made me sink further into your sinfull abyss- of torments,
I was fixated you reckoned!

And when I clutched my leather jacket,
I was cheap ofcourse!
The Humiliation, pain, anger-
The end justifies..... you said.
So you thought I wanted a ride in your hummer?
Wrong!
Wrong!
I shall walk all the way,
I shall walk to the very end!
Am fixated on walking, and to walk I shall.
Of my pains-humiliation-rides of passion,
By jove I shall walk-man or less man!

by Wesongah David

Comments (9)

Wonderful meditation on the contrast between nature, and the violence and corruption of human endeavour. A timely poem for this age of Trump. War mongering is one of his targets, the hypocrisy of colonial powers another, and the hypocrisy of those who would spout Christian ethics and oppress others through their actions yet another. Solitude in a pastoral setting allows his heart to go to these dark places, an exhausting journey from which he returns as the poem closes.
I agree with the first comment, it is far too long, and he does tend to stray from one train of thought to another without clarity. But, then reading the remaining comments they feel it is very good poetry, and see the meaning of war, bloodshed, and understand why he wrote the poem. I am not a scholar, so I'm afraid my comments are very basic, and rest on whether I understand the message of the poem immediately, and the writer's inspiration, I found it a very confusing poem to read, and follow.
Too long for my short attention span, therefore my friend, sorry, I am no fan!
Coleridge's most famed work was arguably, The Rime of the Ancient Mariner. Sadly, as his mental health failed, he became a religious fanatic and began to ramble. The language in this piece is understandably archaic, as a long time has elapsed since he roamed the Lake District, and the punctuation makes this political mantra even more obscure. Rejected love and religious mania have not, in my opinion, created a poem of any great note here.
Fears In Solitude by Samuel Taylor Coleridge is not a simple Romantic Lyric poem reflecting upon nature. The poem was written in April 1798 and is not neutral musings about nature, an imaginative flight and return to reality, but rather a reaction to fearful politics of the time. The poem is problematic, a misfit conversational poem of the eighteenth century, with a structural pattern rather like the seventeenth century meditation poem. It is a composition of place and analysis, written during the alarm of invasion. The belief the French threatened to invade Great Britain, and support the Irish rebellion, results in national preparation for possible invasion. ‘It weighs upon the heart, that he must think What uproar and what strife may now be stirring This way or that way o'er these silent hills- Invasion, and the thunder and the shout, And all the crash of onset; fear and rage, ’ Coleridge writes this patriotic defense of homeland, with unity of mankind and nature, expressed with a fear that invasion will destroy this unity. Coleridge’s belief is man should live a simple life in harmony with nature. However Coleridge is still critical of some British politics which are like a plague that spreads similar vile practice to other nations. ‘Our brethren! Like a cloud that travels on, Steamed up from Cairo's swamps of pestilence, Even so, my countrymen! have we gone forth And borne to distant tribes slavery and pangs, And, deadlier far, our vices, whose deep taint With slow perdition murders the whole man, ’ This to my mind is a direct attack on the slave trade, Pitt supports anti slavery but the revenue is needed to support a war against France, and Pitt feared if Britain abolishes slavery at this time France will take Britain’s former place in the slavery market and become even more powerful. Coleridge is not writing a simple conversational poem, investigating landscape in reflective contrast to the effects of the French revolution, within the spiritual nationalistic nature of empires at this time. Coleridge is conflicted, suffering from a lack of heart, he has no eternal truths; he was an early supporter the French revolution, as a Jacoblin and radical but has now recanted. His belief this revolution will bring needed political change to Great Britain and Europe, dissolves with the revolutionary crimes of the new French government and the swift invasions of European nations that follow. Coleridge with lost faith in the revolutionary cause, turns from radical to more conservative. Proof of this and the political nature of the poem, are the removed lines attacking William Pitt and the British government in some later editions. The pastoral images beginning and ending the poem, rejoice in mankind in harmony and peace with the ‘fresh and delicate’ balance of nature. A long poem due to the necessity of what the poet needs to exclaim.
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