Poem By Suzy Skoda
I never realized how much I would miss you until you were no longer there.
My entire life I tried so hard to reach all my goals, and some goals you set for me, so that just once you would say 'I'm proud of you'
I don't remember much, the night the call came. I remember thinking you cannot be gone, theres so much unsaid between us. Nothing has been the same since that night. In a second, nothing would ever be the same. The man that held my hand when I was scared. The man that I looked up to, the man I wish had made more time for me, the man I was so very proud to call 'Dad' was gone.
Why did we hold things in? Why is it whenever you were ready to leave instead of saying I love you, instead of asking you to stay- walking away is what we did best.
I never did learn how to say goodbye, how to watch you walk away. I invented this perfect Dad, and the truth is you were human.
The last time I saw you, I took your cold hand, and in the silence in the darkness, I said 'I love you Dad' your in my heart to stay.
Your little girl always,