I really lost control of my life
I couldn't cope with all the grief and strife.
A friend realised I wasn't right
That I had become deflated and no longer wanted to fight.
I was taken to the hospital to be assessed
And they realised I was bery suicidal and depressed.
I wouldn't eat and couldn't sleep
I just broke down into a quivering heap.
My friend drove me around to the psychiatric centre
This was hurting her too, I hadn't realised how much I meant to her.
She took my hand as we walked in
It felt like my brain was rattling in tin.
All I could do was sit and cry
And told them how I wanted to die.
Then they took me away
Po was not allowed to stay.
I was taken into a dorm
And told the doctor would see me again in the morn.
I shared a room with three others
It was all so daunting so dived under the bed covers.
They sedated me
But I woke up screaming at three.
So I was moved into a room of my own
And spent most of my time in there alone.
Over time I met a few nice people in there
They were quite happy to discuss their problems and share.
But I couldn't believe that within 24 hours someone stole my phone
Nobody cared so I didn't bother to moan.
You could go out but only with a memeber of family
This one bloke had been drinking that was obvious to see.
Then het got aggressive and angry
He leapt from the chair and went to attack me.
He really was a scary man
But no-one seemes to give a damn.
They doped him up on more sedation pills
Said he couldn't help it, that he was ill.
This place was making me worse
I needed to break out of this awful curse.
I told them that I wanted to go
That this ward was making my anxiety levels grow.
They had to re-assess me
To see if I was fit to be let free.
I put the 'smile' back on my face
I told them what they wanted to hear to better my case.
I convinced them to let me go home
So at last I was free to roam.
I don't ever want to go back there
That really was the biggest scare.
They didn't really help me
They would dope me up and leave me be.
Doctor's just don't seem to have a clue
The only person you can rely on in life is YOU! !