I Am Sorry

My dear heart, I am sorry for hurting you
you bore too much pain because of me
I stored all my grieves in you and
always patted you with apathy
I gave you so much hurt to bear
I am the reason for my devastation and
yet I blamed you.

My dear love, I am sorry for losing you
You loved me so much to death
I showed you the path to love but
couldn't lead you there
I coloured your eyes with hues of green
I raised your spirits to the skies and
left you landless.

My dear life, I am sorry for leaving you behind
you gave me the reality I ever needed and
wore your name over my blank face
I ignored you whenever we came across
I spent you in an uncertain way
where shadows hung over
the truth of your existence.

My dear soul, I am sorry for denying your presence
you called me many times in your lap
to give me lullabies to a deep sleep
yet I refused to close my eyes to an enchanting dream
I wondered behind all the time
I rushed with the pace of time to catch my dreams
I ran after unfaithful desires to live with

Oh dear me! I am left alone now
pondering over my existence,
I shall have no one to shoulder my sorrows,
I deserve no one and no one deserves me,
for I never kept promises nor been faithful to myself,
So shall I die alone in the vagueness of this verdict
till death comes to hold me in its arms lifeless!

by Asma Khan

Comments (1)

May Allah gives you better than you wish. Amazing poem!