A Smile To Remember

we had goldfish and they circled around and around
in the bowl on the table near the heavy drapes
covering the picture window and
my mother, always smiling, wanting us all
to be happy, told me, 'be happy Henry!'
and she was right: it's better to be happy if you
but my father continued to beat her and me several times a week while
raging inside his 6-foot-two frame because he couldn't
understand what was attacking him from within.

my mother, poor fish,
wanting to be happy, beaten two or three times a
week, telling me to be happy: 'Henry, smile!
why don't you ever smile?'

and then she would smile, to show me how, and it was the
saddest smile I ever saw

one day the goldfish died, all five of them,
they floated on the water, on their sides, their
eyes still open,
and when my father got home he threw them to the cat
there on the kitchen floor and we watched as my mother

by Charles Bukowski

Comments (2)

I've felt these feelings too, my friend. If you ever need to talk, I am here to listen.
Well written and I totally understand where your coming from..it does make you wonder some times in life..why? 'I wouldn't have to cry myself to sleep From the pain of being lonely If prayer changed anything' your not alone in spirit people are with you even if they are hundreds of miles away..but again I fully understand how you feel. keep smiling..walk tall..your friend..Chris