In Respect For Chris - To Chelsi X
This is especially for you little sister of mine,
For you to read those days when it all seems so very hard,
When you feel the pain in your heart, and depth that you have been scarred.
You apply that radiant smile, the one that hides your tears so well,
I can see beyond the mask, that covers the window to your soul,
I see what you hide so deep within, and how you struggle to gain control.
Please allow yourself to feel, what you have lost inside your tears,
So much sadness and grief spin endlessly around – needing to be free
Waiting for you to cry the tears of healing – to heal the loss of me
It is these days when I am always close by your side,
To hold you’re hand in mine, and never let you fall
I know my little sister these times are the hardest of all.
The moments when you feel my presence all around
You feel my hand lightly, resting on your arm, pausing for a while,
This is my message to you, reminding you to smile.
One more very important thing I need you to never doubt
Whatever was said and done, before I left you that day
Were not the words I wanted to share, before I was taken away?
If I could change what I had spoken so loudly, without thought,
I would take back the words that I said– and say something new,
I would change those words and say - I LOVE YOU
The last thing on my list – is just to say goodbye-
So, goodbye my precious family – I could not of loved anyone more complete
I will walk beside you silently– until again our souls will meet.
January 24th 2006