mr. haney owned
shreveport 's general store
where a dollar a week
bought my 12 year old frame's
lift and lunge of barrel and crate
across a sawdust floor.
still, he wanted more.
the guitar refused to get naked
with haney. he would fumble
up the seams of its hidden croon;
hook, clasp and bodice of each tune
mangled down to a stunted strum. so,
he'd quit. he'd hoist bourbon
and order me to hoist song,
the velvet locomotive of marrow deep hum
i'd tote up from the swollen center of guitar,
its catch and slide caught between palms
and cradled ‘cross louisiana starlight.
his bottle and scowl grew louder
with each reel and jump that i played
while getting paid to show the way
of undressing music from its wooden clothes.
but it was like coaxin' stone
to bathe in sky. he never let his flesh
wallow in the blue floatin' ‘round his earth,
so he buried himself deeper in his own dirt.
he'd think on the hurt a white man can do
without second thought—he'd slur
nigger, someday i'm gonna kill you.
and stagger home.
it was there, alone,
in the dark, darkness of me
that i first learned the ways
of pure white envy.
and thank you, mr. haney,
for teaching me...