Letting The Inside Out
Putting the knife in
Watch it slice through my skin.
Await the crimson red
It's a sudden rush to the head.
It doesn't hurt
I'm nothing but dirt.
I want to cut more
I'm poison, right down to the core.
Built up anger causes me to overheat
To let it out, I carve at myself like some piece of meat.
This is how I cope
Sometimes I feel there is no hope.
Letting the inside out
That's what it's all about.
This is my way
Of making my problems go away.
Slash the blade through my vein
To take away all my pain.
Try and cover the scars
One day I may take it too far.
I've got the urge to cut deep
Hopefully fall into a life long sleep.
Do I deserve to be here?
Wish I could dissolve just like a tear.
The wounds looks so ugly
Just like the rest of me.
Self harm takes control
It sucks you into this deep, dark hole.
I find it difficult to resist the urge
It's like an almighty electrical surge.
Sometimes actions speak louder than words
Although deep down, I know these feelings are absurd.
No-one can know
Can't let the evidence show.
I just want to cut out the bad bits
Allow it to pour out through the slits.
I clear up the sticky mess
And wait for the blood to drip less.
I then hide my tools away
Just in case I need them for another day.
One day I hope to get rid of them
But I'm unable to say when.
I want to stop ot before it's too late
To stop this self torture, it would be great.