Making Myself Ugly
Staring around the room
Watching people happy and filled with cheer
Wondering why I’m not feeling the same
Just want to go home already and drink a beer.
Wishing I was free
Free from stress, hurt & this life
Creating a downfall…
He wants me to be his wife.
Pushing the time further and further back
Not willing to give in
It’s been almost six years
And I doubt he’ll ever win.
Forcing myself to smile
Holding back my tears
I’m okay for a little while
But than again I’ve been drinking beers
Don’t want to fall into a hole
Where no one can ever love me
Closing my heart off to the world
Making myself ugly