Mental Break (Random Rant Poem)
Poem By Olivia Elise Braun
Big fucking deal one more goodbye, It’s been a part of every aspect of my life
I sit here and try, I tell you no lie and this is how it goes down?
I never wanted anything more then to find someone like you
You didn’t need to be perfect, because I loved you for you
Everything wrong just made you so right, all the little laughs and inside jokes
I showed you almost every side, but you had to pry until you found what I hide
Ok I made some mistakes but have moved on, but you call me weak and tell me I’m not strong
You seem to think you know me better then myself, but there is so much you don’t know
I’m not this jaded person, I don’t think the world is cold and empty
Just ask anyone, they know how I feel…I never want to take anything for granted
And try to find the good in everything I can, I know I bottle it up and burst when i can’t stand it anymore
Even though I know nothings forever, ill love it as long as I can
I know things come and go, time fades feelings change, but letting go doesn’t come that easy
I’ve done everything I can to please you, and I thought we benefited each other
It wasn’t just sexual it was emotional, intellectual, so many possibilities
And now I don’t know where you’ve gone…You’ve told me time and time again what you do
When you don’t want someone to talk to you…Should I take a hint? Or am I wrong?
Will I ever get to talk to you all night long? I thought I was different I thought you saw more
But the moment you asked me to bring up my past and it mattered anymore
And even though we may never meet, must you leave when you know how badly it pains me?
Are you ganna wait until I stop, are you hoping that every time you’re on I’m logged off?
It hurts me more then the razor I use, thinking all my time with you is through
When I see you get on, my heart starts to race hoping you’ll say something
But here I am a pathetic teenage girl, wanting what doesn’t want me, feeling so unwanted
Sometimes I wish I could just forget…Alls I want is to rewind just a little bit of time