the time how it flys
where has my life gone
i feel like im at the end
but shouldnt i be happy?
i have everything ive ever wanted
a good job, my family back and
a beautiful baby girl
am i wrong for feeling this way?
for wanting to runaway everyday
and escape these thoughts in my head
how could i want to leave my baby
leave her to live this life alone
am i selfish for wanting to end the pain
for feeling like im not good enough for her?
everyday brings on more thoughts
of guilt and regret
i dont want her to end up like me
wondering everyday if today will be the day
you give into the uncontrollable pain
but how can i show her the good in life
when all i see is the misery?
it angers me to think of
the mother i so badly longed to be
then i look in the mirror and see
an animal staring back at me
i thought i could do this on my own
i thought i could be more
i thought i would get better
but now i see im only me
and me will never be
good enough for you my darling
you wont ever have to look far
for i will always be there
i will forever be in your heart
so goodbye my angel baby
i love you more than you will ever know
mommy will be watching over
each and everyday.