Ready To Go
On that rainy night.
Gloom rained over the world.
In my heart I overflowed with joy.
But something felt wrong.
I hit the bottom and It hit me the hard way.
That my love isnt the one you seek.
And I knew this before but love made me foolish.
And the saddest songs make me weak.
And I wanted only to be seen by you.
But you seek better loves than mine.
And I watched you smile, I watched you laugh.
Even though it hurt me. I knew you were happy.
Somehow that made me content.
That night i thought I wasnt going to share a smile with you.
But out of the blue.
Our souls clenched.
And your ravishing beauty embraced me.
And that night for a long time.
I forgot about that city that cried a lonly song for me.
And I held on so tight to that instant.
It felt to me as an eternity.
I felt like the happiest man alive.
But with that i opened my eyes to see.
The truth of the reality.
You were snatched from my grasp.
It wasnt how I wanted it to be.
As long as I wanted that feeling to last.
You were gone.
And it hurts you know. It hurts to want someone you cant have.
But Somewhere along the line I was ready to accept defeat.
Even though it will hurt me so.
Im ready to let go.
Its no ones fault.
Its just how things are.
I was feeling restless and alone.
But that sweet innocent kiss.
That left a numbness on my cheek.
It changed alot of things.
My mind and my heart were at peace.
I felt a sense of overwhelming joy.
And that was what made my night so enchanted.
But reality says I need to go on.
I need to stop living in my own hopes.
It will be tough. But I know if i try hard enough.
Day by day I hope and I pray.
To see you only as a good friend.
Even though my heart cries and hurts deep.
I hope soon to conquore this pain.
In hopes that soon my heart will live again.
And with that I close this chapter.
I back away into the night.
Try to live life with a smile.
Im trying to move along...