I sat and watched you in your sleep
by Ann Odger
and held your hand afraid to move
the time was close when I would weep
the last things said were words of love.
The final sigh, your breath was gone
I could not move nor wish to leave,
you were my life my dearest John,
why did you leave me now to grieve?
I could not sleep, the pain too strong
why you, not me? I had it planned!
each day eternal, hours too long
I'd give my life to hold your hand.
Months of torment and time to greet,
need for comfort from those who cared,
travel spent in order to meet
your family, the loss we shared.
A treasured friend has made me see
the things in life a different way,
I cannot stay in misery
my wish to join you fades away.