So Close Yet So Far Away

You are so beautiful, I can't help but stare, you are so close yet so far away. What has happened to drive you away? You are here but so far away. You once loved me, I could feel it every day, but now you are so close yet so far away. We lay next to each other talking, so close yet so far away. We ride in the car, so close yet so far away. I massage you where you want, so close yet so far away, it's not my touch you want, so close yet so far away, you wake in the morning, you feel me there, your heart sinks, so close yet so far away, it's not me you were hoping for, so close yet so far away. I love you so much though it's not my love you want, so close yet so far away. I try so hard, working on the house, cleaning, cooking, and caring for our children, it's not me you want in their lives, so close yet so far away. I call your name and your smile sinks, so close yet so far away. I walk in to the room and your spirit sinks, you're smiling but it's not real, so close yet so far away. I ache for your love, your touch, your kisses, the feel of you in my arms, your smile as you look into my eyes, so close yet so far away. When we do make love you're not there, so close yet so far away. You wish I was someone else, so close yet so far away no matter how much care and time I take, touching you in the ways you want, so close yet so far away. It's not my touch you want, so close yet so far away. You close your eyes and envision another man, so close yet so far away. I await an I love you that is more than habit, so close yet so far away. I dream of the day your anger leaves, so close yet so far away. I cry myself to sleep every night, so close yet so far away. I ache for a loving embrace, so close yet so far away. I hope every day for this nightmare to end, so close yet so far away. I awake in the morning hoping it was just a dream, so close yet so far away. The spark my eyes once held, no longer is it there, so close yet so far away. I dream of the past, the times of old, you loved me then, I hope you can again, so close yet so far away. You felt I no longer loved you, so far from the truth, so close yet so farE away. I vow to win your love again, so close yet so far away. I dream of the day you look into my eyes and say, I love you baby, so close yet so far away. I dream of a time when you say I am forgiven and mean it, so close yet so far away I dream of the day that you are no longer, so close, yet so far away.

by wallace dittrich

Comments (1)

Peter, I love the conversation you have with this apple tree...but the meter is consistent save for two lines in stanza three. This bothered me in the reading, for you had a consistent iambic tetrameter going and the longer-metered lines through off the poem. Your last three lines were really lovely. Raynette