MS (8.4.1929 / Marton, Lancashire)

! The Dark Cloud Of Depression

The dark cloud.
It sits around your head
or inside it, more like.
Around your mind,
or inside it.
Around your heart,
or inside it.
Does it reach your knees?
Seems like it, some days.
Your toenails perhaps?

If you let it, it has a voice.
Please don’t listen to it;
that’s really dangerous;
it makes general statements
as if it knows you better than you know yourself
like, ‘your…’ - no, it claims to BE you -
so, it’s ‘MY life is pointless..’

Have you noticed, it’s
never in front of you,
always somewhere behind you,
whispering over your shoulder

so on a bad day, it’s there in the bed with you
the moment you awake; not of course
in kissing range, that might be fun – but behind you,
murmuring in a bedly voice
‘WE are really down this morning aren’t WE? ’

or it catches up with you in the bathroom
or a bit later, like when you review the day’s appointments
or start out for work.

The First Aid for depression is of course well known
(to everyone else, at some other time…) :
put some music on, sing in the shower,
sit in the brightest light,
toast your hidden beautiful self
in orange juice; take some vigorous exercise,
seek out good company in
someone or something; be
good company yourself, for someone else..

they all work, for a time; but don’t you wish
for the classic fairy tale encounter –
there you are walking through the dark wood
of the dark cloud, and suddenly
the monster springs out in front of you
in all its horror; for the first time
you meet it face to face; it’s
terrifying, but a curious relief:
now you know it’s not you after all,
but something else; you look it in the eye,
you don’t retreat, but march towards it,
say Boo (for linguistic reasons, rather abstruse)

and as you get nearer and nearer to it, the monster
gets smaller and smaller, until…

and then, marching back
triumphant with a spring in your step,
you may feel like
nailing it with a poem, to say
wow I’ve survived;
have a great day!

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Comments (3)

All of the remedies you have described really do work, if only momentarily. Sometimes this is enough to gain a foothold on the climb out of the pit. Sometimes not.....but all worth a try. A well-put together poem here, Michael, with a message of hope. Full and powerful... Love, Fran xx
Very well explained situation Michael, I thoroughly enjoyed reading this, it is great. Very well thought out and produced. Love and hugs Ernestine XXX
There is much in this poemmuch to read into... sadness, sadness, sadness and then light! Fine write... have a nice day.