Doing It Alone

I'm not strong anymore
Like i used to be
I feel like there's someone else
Living inside of me

Never had a secret
I couldn't keep 'til now
I probably will make it through
I'm just not sure how

When i see the lonely alleys turning off the track
When the baby pink in me fades to a gothic black
When i feel as if my eyes are set alight like fire
When i know that my screams could overcome a choir
When i feel like i'm falling into a bottomless pit
When there's no reason for me to say i'll make it
When the energy drains away like a battery
When the light of day is way too much for me
When i don't wanna hug cause it makes me sick
When it's someone i know could let me down so quick
When i'm too deeply scarred it's too late for healing
When i can't make room for any other feeling
When i'm sinking so hard, i just keep falling down
When i don't grab for help cause i really wanna drown
When i'm told people are there for me and i hate it
When i know my time will come and i await it
When no amount of smiles could take away the strain
When no amount of words could ever ease this pain

So just let me be
What i feel i need to be
Even if that's unbelieveably

I used to rely on everyone
But now i've grown
So this time around
I'm doing it alone

by Carla Nestoros

Comments (2)

the best thing about larkin is to portray the exact feelings of the reader. the apt visual imagery adds to the beauty of this short poem.
This is a good companion to the novel Ethan Frome.