Trapped In Pain

How can I say I'm fine when I'm not
I'm broken inside, my heart is crumbling
My soul is black, in my mind I'm already gone
Pain is still inside of me, like I knew all along pain won't leave me

I'm breaking into pieces, just look at me
The tears they want to fall but I try hard to hold them back
Scars I want so badly, but I just can't bare to pick up a knife to my skin once again

Pain is just a part of me, feels like God's punishing me
What did I do wrong?
Where did I go wrong?
I'm just another empty soul


When I look into the mirror, I can't stand what I see
So broken and bruised with no one there who understands
I'll just go on pretending that I'm alright

It's not like this hasn't happened before
I've been down this road more than once
Just didn't think I'd be down this road again
Thought I would be traveling on a different road

But it's the same ole road, I keep going down it over and over again
All I want to do is scream, feels like I'm alone feeling this way forever more
Just because there's a smile on my face doesn't mean it's real

When I look into the mirror I see scars on the inside of me
I see the shattered pieces falling
All I want to do is break down
Feels like I'm about to have a meltdown

Cry myself a river and maybe I'll just float away
Float away into another day
Just need to get away, but there's nowhere to escape to

My heart has crumbled, my soul is screaming
I don't know what to do
Feels like I'm just trapped in this pain
Forever more this pain I'll have, I'll stay shattered like broken glass, because it's all I know





September 3,2009

by ESPN CHICK

Comments (1)

Writing stuff like this is the number one way of keeping your sorrows fresh as new. It's all nice and emotional but if you are really writing it with belief that that's you, then your pains are going to remain and hurt you forever. We have to stop fealing sorry for ourselves, get over our pains and learn to get going. If we take a deep breath and try to see the beautiful things in life I'm sure we can find many. That's if you wrote this from your feelings, but if it's just a fun sort of poem writing, then this is nice. Cheers :)