I hate you because you're taking over me,
but I love you 'cause you're making me the girl I want to be.
Why do I love you when all you do is put me down?
Making me starve 'till I fit into the smallest gown.
Spinning, swirling, lost in confusion,
not even knowing what I am thinking.
Falling, crying, bleeding, dying,
Into this pit of depression I'm slowly sinking.
O beautiful perfection for which I seek,
you leave me so light and feeling so weak.
In my stomach it seems there's a constant ache,
but this path to perfection I will not break.
My Pain And Love Is Like The Weather
As I sit here on a cold rainy day, Staring out the window at the pouring rain, I
think of you.
As I sit here, under this blanket, trying to keep warm, I only feel as if I have been left out in the cold.
As I think of you, my eyes fill up with tears.
No one understands the perfection I seek,
the reflection I see everyday.
No one hears the words I speak,
my fear of how much I weigh.