Why Do I Feel Like This Agian?

why are these feelings back
for lately
I did not feel them
for they never crossed my mind
but now they are back
back in full force
and a lot worse
a lot stronger
they are different
but worse
I just to just want to die
but now I just wish I could just runaway
start over
start new
I used to just cry
I still do but now I wonder why
I used to think this would never end
but now I know it will never end