My life is a search. I am not searching for things, I am searching for people. I look for the people who won't let me down, for the people who I can count on no matter what. Do I seek romance? No. I seek love. I seek something more than friendship; I seek dedication.
Want to know what's weird? ... besides me, of course. To me, friendship is the most important thing on this earth. I try to put my all into friendships, and I care about the people who do the same in return.
I want to journey around the world... figure out who I am, what I am, where I belong. I haven't quite found the right place yet, being stuck here, but I am still searching. Life is a journey, and I am ready to go... not that you care =]
So anyway, I am Stephen White. I am a senior at Coyle & Cassidy High School... I can be annoying, or cool, depending on your preferences, but it's all up to you whether or not you hate me or like me. I'll try to change your mind a bit, but if you prove to be immobile in your opinion, I will accept it and move on.
I am single and gay. I'm not looking for love at all, and I would rather it come to me, however unlikely and stubborn that seems.
I don't know what I want to be anymore. A masseuse. A poet. An author. A teacher.
I'm kinda dry in the career area.
I am a poet, though. I have a different perspective on the way the world works, and that perspective can be sometimes gruesome and at other times happy. You never know what mood I'll be in, unless you are psychic.
I don't really know what else to say about me. I am me, and me is not something that I can look in a thesaurus for words to describe.
Generally, I expect a lot out of my friends. Being a friend to me is complicated... I expect things, and feel let down if I don't get what I expected, kinda like if you order a brand new book online, and you get it and it's all tattered. I don't want friendship if it's not going anywhere. If you don't see me in your future, don't include me in your present.
Another generalization is that I can't stand when people expect me to keep a conversation going. I don't always want to be the one to initiate conversation, and I don't want to have to be the one to keep the conversation going. That shouldn't always be my job.
And finally, I don't like being let down. Actually I hate it, and I just don't stand for being let down. Letting down is not something you do to someone you care about, and if you truly care about me, you won't let me down; if you let me down, obviously I must not be that important. First chances are like water in the desert; it evaporates, and there's rarely enough left for a second chance...